Valtteri Bottas credits improved mental health support in Formula 1 for helping him share his personal struggles. He detailed his battles with depression and an eating disorder in an essay, emphasizing the importance of open communication in the sport.
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In the piece, Bottas revealed that during his time as a driver for Mercedes he was pushed to the brink of depression and despised F1 when he was relegated to “wingman” for seven-time world champion Lewis Hamilton. He also disclosed an earlier two-year struggle with an eating disorder. Bottas spent five seasons as Hamilton’s teammate following a 2017 promotion from Williams. “First season was good,” he told the Players’ Tribune. “I started the 2018 season thinking that I was the best driver on the grid, and that I was going to win the championship.” But he instead went winless and sacrificed track position often to help Hamilton win the title. “Do you know how badly I wanted to just say no?” he said. “But I had to be a good teammate. I let him through, and of course he had an incredible season. He was the champion. I was ‘the wingman.’ “To this day, I have complicated feelings about it. I don’t know how to answer when people ask me about it, because Lewis is an incredible driver and a friend. I have no bad blood with Mercedes ... but the whole situation almost made me walk away from the sport." The situation nearly broke him mentally. “The old me came back. The negative Valtteri. The obsessive Valtteri. I was reading too many comments on social media, and I started to become very self-loathing," he said in the essay. "Thankfully, I had the tools from my experience in 2014 to understand what was happening, and I had plenty of support.”
Valtteri Bottas struggled with depression and an eating disorder, particularly during his time as a teammate to Lewis Hamilton.
Mental health support in Formula 1 has significantly improved, with better resources and a more welcoming environment for drivers to discuss their issues.
Bottas was motivated to share his experiences in an essay to highlight the intense personal battles drivers face and to encourage others to seek help.
Being relegated to a 'wingman' for Lewis Hamilton contributed to Bottas's feelings of depression and burnout, leading him to consider retiring from racing.
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The 2014 reference was to Bottas' battle with an eating disorder that “completely consumed” him. “It was like a game to me. I’d wake up and weigh myself every morning, and when I’d see the number go down, I’d feel a deep satisfaction," he said. "After two months of spiralling, my nerves were shot. I would wake up at 4 a.m. on my own, no alarm. I was like a drug addict, ‘I’ve never felt better!’ Ha. Completely delusional. The actual reason I was waking up so early was that my body was in starvation mode.” He said he had struggled to find any joy and was “just so angry and negative about everything.” Bottas said his then-wife asked him if he feared the risks of racing, but he'd become so detached that he told her “‘No. If I die, I die.’” “At that moment, I realized that I genuinely did not care what happened to me anymore," he revealed. "Not long after that, I decided to get some help. I started seeing a psychologist, and I finally admitted out loud that I was unwell. It took me almost two years to feel like myself again.” His descent into depression began again in 2018 when it became clear he would only ever be in the shadow of Hamilton. “I was definitely depressed and burnt out. I hated racing. During that winter break before the 2019 season, I did not think that I was going to come back," he said. "That winter break, I made the decision that I was going to retire. Then I went for a walk one day in the forest. I walked in the deep snow for maybe three hours and I walked out of those woods with a completely different mindset.”
Bottas said Thursday he isn't sure what sort of reaction his essay has received because it had only been released the day prior and he has avoided social media. But he hopes the essay shows others there are resources available and the stigma surrounding mental health has changed. “The whole sport has evolved a lot. Everything is more professional,” Bottas said. “I also think when it comes to coaching, physical coaching, mental coaching, that level also has gone up. There is more support available. There's better packages for drivers when it comes to mental coaches. I think people are less afraid of seeking for help, seeking for support, because these things are now talked about more.” \\\_ AP auto racing: